Molly Cookie

Looking forward

Aug 5, 2010 Uncategorized

Can I just write today? With no recipes or pictures? Would that be alright?

Thanks.

When Brian and I were in pre-marital counseling, our pastor asked us what we “need” in life to be happy. What is it about us that makes us us as individuals. He asked us to think of three things that we need continually to be peaceful and happy in life. Three rituals or things about daily life that we could know about each other so that when the other person does that thing, then we know they are happy. Usually that kind of introspection is a little hard for me. I typically have to think about it for a while and come up with an answer later, but this was actually pretty easy for me. I came up with three things that I know I need without having to give it much thought at all.

Here are my three things:

1. I need time to write
2. I need something to look forward to
3. I need conversations with people

I’m going to talk about the middle one right now.

Up until last week, for the past few months I felt like I didn’t really have anything to look forward to. We haven’t planned any big trips, we aren’t planning on having kids anytime soon, we aren’t ready to buy a house, etc. I also felt like I didn’t have a clear direction for my career. I was starting to get really, really down about it. I felt like this blog was really the only thing that I had to look forward to doing. I really, truly did look forward to making food and taking pictures of it so I could write about it and share it with the world. This blog was my thing to look forward to, and that is a big deal. I love this blog because it did that for me. Thank you reading the past few months. I really appreciate it more than I can say.

Then, when I found out I was accepted into the Master’s program for Special Education and I’m going to school in the fall, I all of a sudden had a whole new life to look forward to. A life of helping kids like Sullivan and Cayla every day to reach their maximum potential. When I worked at the LLH as an associate teacher it was the happiest I have ever been in my life with my work. I felt like I was doing something important and that I was good at it. I was in line with God’s plan for me and I loved it. I remember when I left to go back to school a few years ago I cried and cried (during the day, all day, while the kids were there… yeah). Something about leaving that classroom felt so, so wrong, and my heart was really feeling it that day as I left.  I knew at the time that it was time to move on and do something else. After that day I pursued many different things and got on a few different paths, and I never thought that I would end up being a teacher.  It makes sense though. I every time I questioned what I wanted out of life I should have just asked myself what makes me happy, because working directly in the classroom with those kids is the happiest I have ever been. I’m glad that every time I started to question my career Brian would say, “Why don’t you just be a teacher?” Eventually I caught on.

It’s such a great feeling to have such an amazing career to look forward to. The creative ways I can teach and help the kids are endless and I can’t wait to start and see where my imagination takes me. I’m also glad that I always have this blog and food to write about, because I love food and writing about my favorite recipes. This is my favorite hobby. Thank you for taking time to share it with me.